This new job is wearing on me harder than I thought it would. Also, my boyfriend got a job working for Zone 3 Press this summer and as happy as I should be for him – especially for the fact that he intends to spend the extra money on an engagment ring – I can’t be happy because he’s working 10-4 and I work 3-midnight. He also works weekends at his first job while I’m off. So, our schedules are completely opposite of each other and, to be honest, it’s depressed me enough that I can’t focus on reading right now. I don’t want to get too far behind beccause I really want to do this. I’m going to be very disappointed in myself if I let anything get in the way of it.

It’s just hard when I spend 8.5 hours a day at work, and the rest of the hours of the day sleeping/preparing for that 8.5 hours or else feeling sorry for myself because Quincy (seems to be) doing everything in his power to spend time away from me. Sorry, there should be a rule about no angst on the BSC blog, though if you’ve read BSC, its pretty angsty.